WEEK 1: Adjusting
FRIENDS AND FAMILY! Wow it feels like it's been forever since you dropped me off at the airport!!!
Thank you to everyone who wrote me it was so good to hear from you guys!!
SO so much has happened and so i'll do my best to keep my thoughts straight and not ramble too much.
First of all I'm doing absolutely great!!! Like really. I was really nervous about having to adjust and everything but I've been lucky and i honestly feel great. I'm so happy. The CCM is such an awesome place!! I expected it to be kinda crappy but it's super nice. Like hot showers and good food and all that... when you get here everyone is just like 'make it to sunday we promise it gets better from there' but sunday came and went in the blink of an eye and i'm still alive and feelin good.
So we thought that i was going to meet up with some missionaries at LAX, but that actually didn't happen and i flew by myself. some guy named alfredo picked me up (pretty sweet name if you ask me) he didn't speak any english so we had a good time trying to figure out what each other was saying.
My good friend hermana larson from BYU left a letter at the ccm for me because she was leaving like three days before i got there. so i got that letter on the first day and it totally made my day. Also cool story i was feeling a bit nervous about everything but when i walked up to the entrance doors of the ccm i pulled out this note card from my suit coat pocket that said 'have faith, never fear.'it was like perfect timing. I don't even remember where the note card came from.
Also gym time is legendary. The latinos always ask me to be on their volleyball team... but sometimes it gets confusing because they always like to use their feet instead of their hands lol.
So i have the awesome privilege of being the district leader of the best district at the CCM!! We have such a great group of folks and they're all super determined and working hard. I've had the opportunity to give some lessons and some priesthood blessings and its really been great so far.
My companion is from salt lake. He is also going to xalapa, along with one hermana in our district. they're the only people that i've met that are going there so far though. basically everyone at the ccm is going to either mexico, the states, or chile. I've got like a ton of random friends from both arizona and college so thats pretty neat.
So yes everything is going great, classes are awesome, and my spanish is actually coming along way better than i thought it would be...
So here's where i get to the hard part. My companion has really been struggling lately with things like anxiety and homesickness. He's never really been away from home before. I remember one time i was driving with mom and dad and you guys asked me what i was most nervous about, and i said 'having a companion' for sure. To be honest, i selfishly came into the CCM just mostly worried about keeping my own head above the water and making sure I make it out alive.
So much has changed since then.
I honestly feel like the Lord put me with this elder for mulitple reasons: 1) thanks to my whole crazy bout with shingles and anxiety and stuff, I know exactly how he feels. And now that i've learned to control it and now that it's far behind me, I can better help him learn to deal with it. 2) I think that the Lord just really wanted to teach me the whole patience thing right off the bat.
This whole thing started on saturday night when he asked me if i could fast with him. I had no idea that he was struggling and accepted but totally went into it with a terrible attitude. I was doing fine, and next week was fast sunday anyways. But thats when he told me that he was struggling, and so i decided to fast seriously for his well being and that I would have the patience to be able to be there for him and comfort him.
That night he woke me up and was really having a hard time. I was able to give him a priesthood blessing that night and it really brought us together.
I've spent a lot of time in the waiting room in the clinic while he sorts things out with the mission doctors. And yes sometimes it is hard to make sure that you're always being loving and compassionate. For example, today we went to the temple for p day but me and him didn't get to do the session because he had a panic attack on the bus ride over there. But sitting in the clinic and stuff has also given me a lot of time to think... and I realize better now that the mission is not about me at all. Its about my future investigators and people that i talk to, and it's about my companion, but more importantly its about helping myself and others learn about the gospel of Jesus Christ and it's saving capabilities. Do yourselves a favor and look up Ether 12:27... I am doing my best to humble myself before the Lord and let him refine me and make my weaknesses into strengths. I would like for that scripture to be on my plaque please mom! I've learned to understand that even if my companion ends up having to go home, things will be okay and i'll feel fine if i just make sure I'm always doing my best to help him.
I love all you guys so much!! I hope you're not worried about me because I honestly feel so good and i'm lovin life right now!
Elder McBride